WHAT KEPT ME GOING
"Being unmotivated is real, and so is our Lord!"
Hey there!
Welcome to another blog.
Welcome to another blog.
Let me begin with this statement, YES, I went through a splat. It's not the first time though, but this time, it's quite different in the sense that I have no one to share to. Although, my friends were there, but there's this feeling of not wanting to be a burden so there goes the number one masking statement, "I AM OKAY." But of course, I AM NOT.
People would always see me to be a bubbly, carefree, loud person. I doubt if somebody would believe that I also go through problems, way heavier than them perhaps. However, all of these were masked with shining smiles on my face and with the strong personality I have, I guess. In addition, I kinda have that humor, that's what they say. I can light up the room the moment I enter.
But life is not always mountain tops. I have also my valley lows, and when I say lows, I really meant it. Last month, I just experienced being lethargic or unmotivated. Again, this is not my first time. However, t'was a little bit of a struggle because it went to a point that I started to see my purpose blurry. I felt that everything's so routinary already. I would wake up every morning and stare at my ceiling knowing that a day would go on the same--- go to work, then back to my apartment, then, church on weekends.
This kind of scenario was added up with loads of pressures from my family and expectations of people around me. It somehow overwhelmed me to the extent that I pushed myself so hard again and still felt not enough. Other things which affected me were family, future, and plans. Just for the information, I am the kind of person who always sees the bigger picture and so I plan things especially for my future like how to attain my life's goals, stuff like that. However, the way I saw it, it wasn't going according to what I have planned. And for one who got plans, that HURTS!😢
Wanna know what happened next? I became lazy and mediocre on things. I lost enthusiasm on things I once loved such as my book writing, chikamustahan and the like. I distanced myself from my family and from people who are giving me these negative pressures. Whenever people asked my condition, I just act and speak like everything was going well where in reality, it wasn't.
But God is so gracious and I want to strongly testify on that. I saw His love right there and then during those times I felt like I wasn't enough, that I wasn't good enough. He embraced me with a great assurance that He is my Source of joy! He renewed my strength. Actually, I was led back to reading my Bible again and have my quiet time with the Lord once more. Worship is really a very therapeutic and soul-refreshing experience!
I know it may sound "churchy" but I want you to know that we have an unseen enemy who wants to steal, to kill and destroy (John 10:10) whatever we have. The enemy knows our weak points, so when he sees you are getting tired of everything, unmotivated even, he will take that as an entry to lure you with lies.
People would always see me to be a bubbly, carefree, loud person. I doubt if somebody would believe that I also go through problems, way heavier than them perhaps. However, all of these were masked with shining smiles on my face and with the strong personality I have, I guess. In addition, I kinda have that humor, that's what they say. I can light up the room the moment I enter.
But life is not always mountain tops. I have also my valley lows, and when I say lows, I really meant it. Last month, I just experienced being lethargic or unmotivated. Again, this is not my first time. However, t'was a little bit of a struggle because it went to a point that I started to see my purpose blurry. I felt that everything's so routinary already. I would wake up every morning and stare at my ceiling knowing that a day would go on the same--- go to work, then back to my apartment, then, church on weekends.
This kind of scenario was added up with loads of pressures from my family and expectations of people around me. It somehow overwhelmed me to the extent that I pushed myself so hard again and still felt not enough. Other things which affected me were family, future, and plans. Just for the information, I am the kind of person who always sees the bigger picture and so I plan things especially for my future like how to attain my life's goals, stuff like that. However, the way I saw it, it wasn't going according to what I have planned. And for one who got plans, that HURTS!😢
Wanna know what happened next? I became lazy and mediocre on things. I lost enthusiasm on things I once loved such as my book writing, chikamustahan and the like. I distanced myself from my family and from people who are giving me these negative pressures. Whenever people asked my condition, I just act and speak like everything was going well where in reality, it wasn't.
But God is so gracious and I want to strongly testify on that. I saw His love right there and then during those times I felt like I wasn't enough, that I wasn't good enough. He embraced me with a great assurance that He is my Source of joy! He renewed my strength. Actually, I was led back to reading my Bible again and have my quiet time with the Lord once more. Worship is really a very therapeutic and soul-refreshing experience!
I know it may sound "churchy" but I want you to know that we have an unseen enemy who wants to steal, to kill and destroy (John 10:10) whatever we have. The enemy knows our weak points, so when he sees you are getting tired of everything, unmotivated even, he will take that as an entry to lure you with lies.
But wait there's more...
"Jesus came so that we can have life in full!"
"Jesus came so that we can have life in full!"
Isn't that a great news? Jesus came for us to have life in full so that whenever we get to be unmotivated, Jesus is there to listen to us. He knew our hearts already, we just need to pour it out to Him. What an amazing Lord we have indeed! Knowing this, fueled me to keep on going; wake up every day and live life a day at a time.
Truth be told, yeah, there will be really times we'll get unmotivated especially in a world filled with pressures and things that would weigh us down. But take heart, nothing is permanent. You just have to live one day at a time and pray for God's leading in your life.
Renaissan🦋
Truth be told, yeah, there will be really times we'll get unmotivated especially in a world filled with pressures and things that would weigh us down. But take heart, nothing is permanent. You just have to live one day at a time and pray for God's leading in your life.
All the love,
Renaissan🦋
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